Open Doors

     Lately I have been feeling unsure about pretty much everything in my life. Where am I supposed to live, what job am I supposed to have, how am I supposed to be as independent as I want to be, am I in the right career path, and many other questions have popped into my head. I've had to sit down and pray about it. Long and hard. And honestly, I feel like I am right where I am supposed to be at this stage in my life. God has opened new doors for me and I have payed close attention to them. He has given me an opportunity to save money in the long run by having an awesome school so close to home. He's made it to where I'm able to pay out of pocket instead of taking out student loans. So many things have fallen into place for His perfect plan, and not mine.
      Back at the beginning of my senior year I had a dream of going off to college in Arizona. I soon realized that the dream was to start a life of my own and get out of the bubble that I've been in for my whole life. The more I thought realistically and prayed about it, the more I realized that I was not ready for that, God was not taking me there yet, and it was unrealistic for the end goal that I had for myself. I am still praying about where life is taking me next, regarding which school I am supposed to be at, but I do know for certain that I will be applying for a nursing program in the fall. This is something I've prayed about for years, and something that I've known in my heart was meant for me for as long as I can remember. Being able to show God's love through my actions, caring for, and showing sympathy and empathy towards others is my calling. It's also just completely fascinating to me. There are so many opportunities and options I can look into once I obtain my degree.
      For now, God has opened a door for me that I've been praying about for a long time. A few months ago I began to feel as if I needed a change. So, I made the decision after some thought and lots of prayer to quit my job and search for something that would help me with my career. A new challenge in life. I feel like I always sink into a more depressed state the more complacent I become. I've taken every bit of experience I have and applied it to some new opportunities. And it is looking up for me! Hopefully by next week I will have the official word and begin my new journey with some amazing people. I'm so thankful that I may not always know what I'm doing, but God does. He was saying to me, "take a leap of faith, don't worry about the money right now and go for a new dream." I have been able to stay financially stable and happy while I've been praying and going through the process of applications for this new job. Continue to pray for me as I embark on this journey and take in all of the knowledge I can to apply it to my career.
      I am super excited that I may not always know what my future has in store, the answers to the questions that pop into my head, or the meaning behind things that happen. I do know that my God is a powerful God that has seen each and every part of my life story, and directs my path wherever I go as long as I trust in Him. (Proverbs 3:5-6). I am blessed with each person that has been placed in my life and has helped me along the way, and I am so thankful for the open doors that God has given me. No matter what it may be I know that I am safe, for everything has a purpose and God's plan is always better than my own.